Below are the 20 most recent journal entries recorded in Kareal's LiveJournal:

Friday, January 21st, 2005
6:09 pm	POST haven't thought about this in a while, probably won't think of it again for a while Current Mood: cynical (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, October 23rd, 2002
8:43 pm	I like and dislike LJ for that it is depending on my mood. What is it, well in this instance a little window on the world where I can look in and say "look at all the things happening out there" half the time this is good, I like my position of watching, always have and probably always will. The other half I look back to the stasis that has been my life these last couple years and am sad, I'm not doing anything while all these wonderful things are moving elsewhere. Its like a time lapse film where all you see is the coffee cup move once, you know something has happened but also that it didn't matter. I look at all these people going to college and wonder if that would help, if that stasis would speed up at all. I've kinda missed that boat though and if I haven't looking at the way I went throught the rest of schooling I doubt it would change much. (Comment on this)
Tuesday, September 17th, 2002
2:09 am	Exalted 2b The events kinda went like this... In travelling north the caravan returning from the fateful trip to the "pacifistic solar commune" saw a waterspout and investigated to discover a semi-coherent Solar(Chris{Iay}) washed up on the shore of the river, coming from the other direction was another Solar(Andrew) after a short discussion they agree to hide Iay and take him with, the other solar coming too... [and the party is together... again] After returning to the city, Iay's banner receded from exaltation before they reach the city. The next morning going about the town and all see one thing through the crowds, a little girl with golden braids darting through the people. After "Andrew" rescues a man hit on the head by a potted plant out of the blue, he sees the girl on the late night streets he tries to follow and gets tripped up, leaving he runs into 2 men who seem to be following/chasing the girl. The chase begins again after the do the shuffle a little back and forth. "Andrew" loses both parties and returns home and calls a small meeting wondering about the girl and 2 men, "Grant" does some investigating(without any investigation skill) and finds someone who knew where the girl worked a few weeks back. [sleep] Before they set out in the morning there is a banging on the door and opening it the girl darts through being chased by the 2 men. "Grant" tries to stop the men while the other try to calm the girl down. Doesn't work, girls hides in servants closet. "Grant" doesn't stop the men either. The men are going up stairs to the girl when "Andrew" starts mentioning threats, Peter(Catral{sp?}) calms things down(its his house they are about to break) sending the men down to wait inthe guest hall while he brings the girl to them. During this the girl has hopped out of the closet and hugged Iay [Chris kinda sits there non-reactive, after a while I move things forward] The girl moves out to the hall and gets everyone down stairs and pretty much starts a fight between the players and the 2 guys without saying a word. The fight is over in heartbeats the two men dead and he girl revealed as a Sidereal exalted... [end of game session] Current Mood: satisfied Current Music: Capercaillie-Dusk till Dawn (Comment on this)
1:47 am	Exalted Part 2a yes I know there is no part 1 but it all boils down to, they killed a small army and then everyone but avi,john and grant changed characters. So I think I'm going to post a synopsis of the games one session behind so I don't accidently give something away I didn't mean to. So today I'll just go through the cast of characters: 1. Strangly enough the best RPer in the group Grant. Night caste, King of Thieves with a fetish for thrown knives and a mechanical snake. Has nigh impossible grand plans. 2. The worst RPer of the group, big suprise: Andrew. Started life as an invulnerable knight, before the first game changed to a caster(it provides better defense with a nd circle spell) and then after the first game had been reading too much kenshin and is now a swordsman with "assasin tendancies"(wtf?) but he still has the 1st circle version of the defense spell. Currently Dawn Caste by my insistance. 3. Peter, Dragon-Blodded is working out to be a great patron to the players despite being theoretically an enemy, greatly resolved in character concept, can't wait for background. 2nd best RPer in the group. 4. Chris, started as a warrior-monk, after the first game he decided it was too powerful and not stylish enough so after getting one of the new books pulled his character from there, which is still his style but the background is more detailed and slightly un-chris so we shall see how it turns out. Harpoon-wielding Witch Doctor with memory holes. Put him in an awkward situation and he just kinda didn't deal with it so we shall see how this all turns out. Twilight Caste. 5. John. Bounty Hunter, haven't got too much detail yet(hint, hint) He only played in the first game and that was sadly mostly combat. 6. Avi. Slave-Dancer, same problem as John only played first game. Next Game is Friday at noon... stay tuned, same bat station, totally different time. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, September 1st, 2002
5:22 pm	So saturday I'm hoping I can sidetrack the standard fighting a little bit to get an exalted game moving. So if anyone is interested in playing a fantasy superheroes game which is basically what it is then show up. (Comment on this)
Tuesday, July 23rd, 2002
3:44 pm	I hate live journal, 95% of the time it loses my posts (Comment on this)
Friday, June 28th, 2002
10:31 am	Well I'm leaving for Iowa on tuesday and will be gone for two weeks, likly completly out of contact. However when I get back I would like to very shortly run a Fading Suns game. Primarily I'm hoping for some kind of character background for when I get back as a guide for character creation and what I'm actually doing with the plot. As far as resources to figure out what the heck the world is and what is going on there are kinda 2 things since I'm bringing the main book with me on my trip: The players companion which Mike was reading a little of and John is currently in possession of and this. Hopefully the link works, never played with that here. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, June 26th, 2002
11:45 am	Posting well might as well post since I've been reading others posts. Do I really have a reason to post... not really but DAOC is down fixing a "major bug" in the patch that was supposed to go live today and all the news sites are down becuase 20,000 people are hammering them trying to get info, stupid people. (6 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, August 19th, 2001
7:10 pm	Movies Best Movie with Swordfighting: Highlander Best Movie with Psionics: Dark City Best Overall Miniseries: Neverwhere Best Vampire Miniseries: Ultraviolet Best Comedy Show: Red Dwarf Best Overall Movie: Usual Suspects Best Anime: Visions of Escaflowne Best Sci-fi 'B' Movie: Buckaroo Bonzai Across the 8th Dimension Best Comedy 'B' Movie: UHF Best Vampire TV show: Buffy the Vampire Slayer Best Sci-fi TV show: Babylon 5 Best Tv show that could have been good if it had gone somewhere: Total Recall 2040 I'm sure there is more I'm not thinking of (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, July 25th, 2001
10:58 pm	Static Have I really changed at all in the last 2 or 3 years. I mean I'm sure there is some superficial stuff, but have I actually changed in any live moving onward growing up kind of way. I suppose I got a job or two. Whatever is going to happen in my lifeit kinda needs to happen in the next 6 years. Ok so I pulled that number out of a hat but I need to be mostly resolved with getting a job or series of jobs(moving upward) and a place. And I know kinda idealistically where I might want to be it is the same idea I had 4 years ago and I haven't moved towards it at all besides getting older but thats going to keep happening until things are past and I'll be looking behind me at might have beens. (Comment on this)
Monday, July 2nd, 2001
2:32 pm	Age I am - 20 People I have fucked (girls & guys) - 1 Age when i lost my virginity - 18 times i have been in love - I'm not sure, possibly never time i have had my heart broken - never hearts i have broken - 0 months i have been single - about a year continents i have visited - 3 age when i first flew all alone - 10 or 11 I think number of boys i have kissed in my life - 0 number of girls i have kissed - 4 number of grades i got at school that were less than A - how about number of 'F's - 6 classified as suicide attempts but weren't - 0 types of drugs taken illegally - 0 never been offered drugs i am addicted to right now - 0 number of people i would classify as true, could trust with my life type friends - I don't know, if i couldn't hndle it I'm not sure how much help I would be given number of people from university that i will stay in contact with - 0 number of piercings - 0 number of tattoos - 0 number of times my name has appeared on film credits - 0 age when first paid for writing - 0 number of scars on my body - 3, I think but one is under my hair number of times i have feared for my safety whilst walking around London- 0 number of times a boy/girlfriend has made me scared of what they could do to me physically - 0 number of things in my past that i regret, and still haunt my nightmares - haunt my nightmares? 2, and one of them is a girlfriend ____________________________________________________________ 7 things that you are afraid of: 1. Failure 2. Failure 3. Failure 4. Failure 5. Failure 6. Failure 7. Failure 7 things that make you cry: 1.Getting angry 2. Movies 3. Death 7 things I love: At the moment not much 7 things I don't understand: 1. Myself 2. People 3. Parents 4. People 5. Girls 6. People 7. Life 7 things on my desk: 1. 2 stacks of books 2. taken apart computer 3. Set of Juggling balls 4. Statue of Garuda(sp?) 5. Blowgun 6. 2 rolls of posters 7. pile of cords and a modem Right now you are: Sitting on my bed writing this and avoiding work 7 facts about you: 1. I exist 2. I am boring 3. I like movies 4. I like people 5. I have stuff 6. I do things 7. I don't move forward 7 things to do before I die: Is there anything I really need to do? not really, I could make a list of silly things and think wouldn't that be interesting but it doesn't need to be done. Current Mood: depressed Current Music: none (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, July 1st, 2001
2:06 am	The Federal Building Walking up to the bus stop and looked around, a black man in a buisness suit was standing at attention in the corner of the shelter with a briefcase, a young woman was coming across the square behind me wearing a navy blue blazer, a 20 something guy was walking behind the bus stop shelter wearing a red berret and an old man was standing across the street in front of a mail box looking at all of this. And thats when I realized what was wrong... there was a van hurtling towards the stop slamming on its breaks and all hell broke loose. The side door slammed open and five guys with rifles jumped out. Reports from my right signaled the man with the briefcase firing at them. Diving to the ground, I hear several shots impact past me, the thud of the buisnessman and the acceleration of the van leaving the five men behind. The young woman is pulling a gun from her shoulder holster and firing, one of the terorists drops. The other four crouch behind a low wall returning fire when a sudden shot from behind drops another of the terrorists. The old man has a large revolver out and is taking another shot as the men try to scatter facing this obviously unexpected threat and losing another of their number. Hearing sirens in the background they realize the futility of their assault and begin to run down the street after the van getting caught by bullets from "civillians" wandering around the building. Current Mood: apathetic Current Music: Matrix: Club to death remix (Comment on this)
Saturday, June 30th, 2001
10:54 am	hmmm... shoulda posted 8 times yesterday to keep the pattern going, oh well that pattern would get insane soon anyway. (Comment on this)
Wednesday, June 27th, 2001
11:18 pm	Egad I hate getting up at 6am... and why do people in planetarion always attack right around now? when I need to launch in 5 hours to defend my allies I'll be asleep (3 Comments |Comment on this)
2:44 pm	QOTD: What makes life worth living? (6 Comments |Comment on this)
2:26 am	So I've been looking on here at the lancers set and I noticed the arcane draconum(#142 from lancers)... and I thought the hierophant was bad this thing is just psychotic. Granted it is 202 points so you can't even field it in a standard game but still... armor 21 at range and I drop 2 points off each attack. For those that don't know 2 points is a lot as the draconum can take 9 total. This guy was obviously designed for HUGE games since he has command too. I can just see it the arcane draconum fielding an army of 9 squads(again a standard game you field about 3-4 squads) The model is kinda neat too though he really should have legs as balancing on his tail looks a little silly for this monstrously powerful figure. (Comment on this)
12:01 am	Wow, AI was good dragged on a little and I'm sure there is some different versions of the ending out there, but overall it was good. And the question still remains: Alien or Machine (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, June 25th, 2001
2:17 am	In crowds I hide behind myself, with walls all shiny around, to be small and unnoticed I try to be as I am sitting next to me focusing on myself unchanging to the crowd around me I sit alone in the crowd watching people go by never really knowing if they noticed me the darkness comes the days at end and still I sit alone, if anyone be that noticed me I'll truly never know Current Mood: poetic Current Music: none (Comment on this)
2:08 am	If I open up my chest to my heart... what will those that see it think? will it be beating strongly? Is it hardened with out a care? Is it blackened with deception? Or dripping with despair? If my heart was laid out the world to see would it just be it or would it be me. (Comment on this)
Friday, June 22nd, 2001
12:55 am	I forget things too fast, I had this all worked out in my head, but then again I need to remember not to do thatjust go with the flow right. Lesson 1: Don't wait until after the buzzer sounds. I had 14 months starting feb 2000, thats what the money from my dad bought me... what did I do with it, squandered it. 14 months is a long time unless you only look at the now then it is just an instant.its april then my grandparents did me a favor they were going away so I could house sit their house for a month and they would pay me the months rent. its may things are getting close but I'm working just enough so in the two months I have I pay what I need to. Its now, I have no money I have nothing of any real value besides my friend and my parents are supporting me but for not much longer and NOW I decide to start trying to find solutions, trying to make decisions that I had 16 months to work on, what ever I do I have squandered 3 years of my life avoiding the things that needed solving waiting until after the last minute on everything. I don't need understanding or compassion, I need a hard linethat will set me straight to my course. Do I try and go to college? Do I stay and try to solve my personal problems like this one. that wouldn't get me anywhere. Do I try and abandon the comferble surroundings I have to hope the shock of cold water will set my senses straight. Too many questions 16 months too late. Current Mood: thoughtful Current Music: The fan in my computer (1 Comment |Comment on this)